Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Feeling Somewhat Bleak Around the Edges

I am not well today. Tomorrow I am guaranteed to feel even worse as I am due at the hospital to have unspeakable things done to my poor body by a Scottish lady doctor. These two facts are not exactly helping me feel funk free. I am fighting hard against it, but for the last coupe of days several things have left me feeling somewhat bleak around the edges.

Amid all the angst at my own uselessness, I got an email from a friend, part of which read: ‘Nobody could erase my memory of you being there for me on the end of the phone every day when I split up with my ex, or hell – you giving me the hand-up in my career that led to what I now do for a living. That’s family, and that is what our line is all about.’

I found this deeply touching. There is no doubt it does the soul good to be occasionally reminded you have helped those you care about. The email also served as a bit of a kick up the arse. I cannot afford the luxury of feeling sorry for myself – there too many people I love and I want to do the best by.

Labels:

14 Comments:

Blogger Mirk said...

Which two Scottish, lady, or things done to your body? I will presume the last two. So here is the third just to add cheer to the proceedings! Scots are world renowned for having cold hands!

Hope things go okay, and if it was the first two I hope she does have cold hands ;0)

12:46 AM  
Blogger Nina said...

Sending PVs for you, for tomorrow. Hope all goes better than anticipated.

The absolute best is when our chosen family comes along at the right time, with the right words or a gesture to remind us how special we really are. I am glad you get to enjoy that. :^)

8:07 AM  
Blogger David said...

Thank you both for the kind thoughts.

I have had this Scottish doctor’s hands up my backside before now. Trust me, the temperature of her hands will be the last thing on my mind.

12:19 PM  
Blogger General Catz said...

David, hope all went well today. And as for the other, you are a blessed person to have people like that in your life. I know you realize it.

Get well soon.

1:50 PM  
Blogger zirelda said...

Good luck with the intrusion...

somehow that just sounds bad..

3:16 PM  
Blogger Milla said...

Now it is Wednesday evening and I hope it all went well today for you.

The friend who wrote you the letter seems like a very nice person: she is grateful to you and she tells you. A lot of people are not like that, at all.

8:16 PM  
Blogger David said...

Thank you all for you concern. I am home. I feel very sore, out of sorts and not looking forward to the wait for biopsy results.

10:54 PM  
Blogger Lemon Lime Moon said...

We keep you in good thoughts and prayers for a good outcome.
Even people you don't know are concerned for you.

11:04 PM  
Blogger Dickon Springate said...

My thoughts are with you bro ... as always.

2:00 PM  
Blogger slaghammer said...

I have found that for me, it helps to speak of unspeakable things, especially where doctors are involved. When I post the details of some embarrassing “procedure,” It makes me feel like the monkey on my back is releasing its grip.

6:25 AM  
Blogger Chandira said...

Hope you're doing better by now, and a bit of feeling sorry for oneself is ok too. SOunds like it's not without reason!!

I've had similar experiences of intrusive doctors, no fun, is it? I hope they at least had the decency to give you good drugs.

Yes, chosen family is a good thing. I feel like that about certain groups of people that are still in touch after 7 years away from home, and my acting like an ass and them still all mostly forgiving me. And those people being the ones that really understand how fucking wild and odd life can get. :-)

7:32 PM  
Blogger zirelda said...

I hope you're feeling better now.

4:07 AM  
Blogger Milla said...

It's been a few days since your last post. I hope you are doing OK.

7:31 PM  
Blogger David said...

Thank you all for your concern. I will be back to blog very soon.

10:09 PM  

Post a Comment

Links to this post:

Create a Link

<< Home